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  Rick crossed the room to the dumbwaiter. It had been here when he and Marie had first rented the place. When Tommy had been a baby, they'd put him on the little sliding tray, and haul him up and down, up and down . . . it was the only way, sometimes, to get him to sleep. It became their favorite indoor game. Five years, he'd hauled Tommy up and down. Five years, Tommy's laughter echoed up the chute while Rick's laughter chased him down. Then the welding accident, the morphine, the flashbacks . . . In one year, it was all gone. Tommy, Marie, life -- gone like an echo with no one to hear it.

  The door to the dumbwaiter was about at waist level. Rick slid it open. It was barely big enough for him to fit his shoulders through. That was fine -- Rick had learned he didn't have to even put his shoulders through, just his face. Close eyes, insert head, and hold breath: a little safety drill. He waited a moment, and then opened his eyes.

  All the world spun and swirled like a million dark butterflies blown by a breeze into Rick's face.

  He was somewhere else. It was nighttime, and the moon was big and silver in the sky, brighter than it ever was in any sky Rick had seen. He was in a wheat field, and a breeze made the stalks dance softly. There was no eviction notice here, no Ernesto Ruiz Montalvo. Just the moon, the wheat, the breeze.

  And Tommy.

  He was sitting up on a little rise. Rick could see his red overalls. He pushed away the desire to run to his son -- just moved forward easy through the wheat, his back straight. Slow and calm and maybe this time, Tommy would stay. Maybe he'd let Rick hold him again. Maybe they could sit down together on that little rise, and Rick could smell him, and wrap his arms around him and hug him, and feel the smoothness of that little six-year-old face against his grizzled cheek.

  He was walking too quickly. Tommy saw him coming, and jumped up. His eyes were wide and dark, as black as the starless sky. He turned and ran. Rick could see his head just over the bobbing wheat, a loose tangle of brown curls.

  "Tommy! Tommy, please stop! Stop!"

  He had to catch him this time. He had to make Tommy understand that this was the end. So Rick ran too, following Tommy under the bright moon, through the whispering, rushing wheat and the warm breeze. He tried to make it a game -- Tommy wasn't really terrified of him. This was play. A daddy and his boy playing tag. But the breeze carried Tommy's sobbing back to his ears.

  "Go away!" Tommy screamed when Rick was close enough to put his hand out, just an inch from Tommy's bright red overalls. "Go away!"

  And then Rick tripped over nothing he could see. He fell, and fell, and fell, until he was back in the bedroom, looking down the dark chute.

  Rick stood there numbly, willing the wheat field back. It wouldn't come. It never did. Tommy had told him to go away, and so he did, and he couldn't come back until tomorrow. Tomorrow . . . maybe tomorrow Tommy would listen to him.

  But he wouldn't. Rick knew it. Tommy hadn't listened the first day Rick had put his head into the chute, looking to see why the tray had stuck. He had gone back every day since then, even when he was bone tired from medication and liquor and work, even when he knew all he could do was watch his son run off into the wheat field.

  Tommy never listened.

  Ernesto was at the front door. Rick could hear him pounding and shouting his name. Little rat's key didn't work, now, did it? Must have something to do with the new lock Rick had installed after getting the last eviction note. Rick lay on the nappy old couch in the living room, and smiled, listening to Ernesto. Let him try the back door, too. Let him go on back there and see how Rick had fixed it, too. Let him bang away, and scream and shout.

  Rick got up to get a drink of water -- and the front door swung inward, without even making a squeak. Ernesto looked in at Rick, surprised.

  "Hi, Ernesto," Rick managed slowly. How had the door been opened? There was someone else standing behind the Mexican, someone tall and broad shouldered, with graying hair. The stranger had a face like a retired Army General. Apple pie and industry and discipline all rolled into one.

  Ernesto came in. "Took you long enough to open the door."

  Rick shrugged. "I was asleep."

  "You was drunk. It's eleven o'clock, man. Why ain't you working?"

  "I don't see the point, Ernesto. You're evicting me, remember? I've got nothing to work for now, since I don't have to pay rent." Mr. Army General was still standing outside. "Come in if you're coming in, mister. Don't just stand there with the door open -- you'll let the flies in."

  "You invite him in, but not me, Rick? After all I've done for you?"

  Ernesto was in his face now. Rick backed off a bit. "He's not evicting me."

  Mr. Army General came in and closed the door softly. When he moved up, Ernesto moved aside. Like he was obeying an unspoken order. Mr. Army General stuck out a hand. "Quincy Umble, Mr. Manchester."

  Rick took his hand slowly. Quincy Umble had hands as cool as iron. "Rick. Just Rick."

  "Rick." Quincy Umble nodded. "I am going to be purchasing this home from Mr. Montalvo."

  Ernesto guffawed. "See? He is evicting you. In a way."

  Rick sagged away. "Oh."

  Quincy Umble did not look at Ernesto. "I'd like to take a look around your home, Rick. Ernesto, I don't think you need to stay -- why don't you go get the car started up? I won't be long."

  And just like that, not a word spoken back, Ernesto left them alone. Rick watched him go. He turned to look at Quincy Umble, and his breath caught in his throat. Quincy Umble's eyes were as large as moons, as dark as a starless night sky. And they were hungry.

  "So," Quincy Umble said. "Rick. Show me around."

  He shouldn't do it. He didn't want to do it. Men with hunger like that in their eyes -- Rick knew that look. Like some of the soldiers he'd known, looking at the pretty young Vietnamese girls and licking their lips. Like the child molesters he'd seen in the hospital. Like the kids he'd seen in some alleyways, hunkered over needles and syringes. Hunger that doesn't ever, ever die, and here it was right in his own home, asking him to show it around. It had no place here.

  "I don't want to," Rick said. His voice got swallowed up in those black eyes.

  Quincy Umble smiled, showing his white, even teeth. He clapped Rick on the shoulder. "I understand perfectly. But you should. Be a good host. Show me around."

  Quincy Umble's hand was on his shoulder still. Rick felt his head getting light. "This is the kitchen," he said, pointing. "And, uh, this is the living room. I had to sell my T.V. You know, to, uh, buy food."

  "I see. I like the pyramid of liquor bottles that have taken its place."

  "Uh, yeah. See, I know I have a problem. I do. I've been to AA, you know."

  "I can imagine. Won't you show me upstairs?"

  Rick led him upstairs. Quincy Umble's arm never left his shoulder. Rick felt his arms twitching, wanting to touch the sacred places he'd covered with plaster. But he couldn't. Not with Quincy Umble watching. Not with Quincy Umble's arm on his shoulder.

  They came to the bedroom. "Exquisite," Quincy Umble said, and his black eyes were on the dumbwaiter. "Beautiful." He swallowed, and Rick watched his Adam's apple bob up, down, up. He whispered, "Sweet."

  Quincy Umble let him go, and Rick felt all strength ebb right out of his body. Quincy Umble crossed over to the dumbwaiter, laid his hands on the door, and opened it slowly. Tenderly. But Rick knew his eyes were hungry, and they were peering down the chute.

  "Beautiful boy," Quincy Umble muttered. "So tragic. So sad."

  "Get away from him!" Rick raged. He hauled himself to his feet, lurching against the wall until he stood at the dumbwaiter. "Get away!"

  He struck at Quincy Umble, knocking him away from the dumbwaiter. Was Tommy all right? What had Quincy Umble done? How had he known about the dumbwaiter?

  Quincy Umble straightened himself, and those terrible black eyes fixed themselves on Rick. He didn't say a word. But suddenly, his hand was around Rick's throat, squeezing, until it felt like his eyes were going to burst out of their soc
kets. No matter how hard he flailed and beat at Quincy Umble, he couldn't breathe, he couldn't get free.

  The top stair was squeaking.

  "I just love irony, don't you, Rick?" Quincy Umble said. And then he heaved Rick through the air.

  Rick's head cracked against the wall as he fell. He crumbled into a heap at the bottom of the stairs. Everything was a madness of rushing blood and spinning lights. He tried to see the steps -- they were right in front of him, they had to be. He had to get up there, and get that thing away from the dumbwaiter, away from Tommy. Rick's fingers scrabbled at the edge of the step but he was too weak to push himself up.

  The sound of footsteps coming down. Quincy Umble wasn't going after Tommy right now. Rick felt his big hands close around his arms and drag him into the living room. Then, a breath on his eyes, as damp as November rain, and frigid. Rick felt something snap together in his skull, and the pounding blood stopped, and the lights stopped spinning. Quincy Umble let him fall to the floor, then sat heavily on his chest, straddling him so his knees held Rick's arms pinned to the floor.

  "Get off of me," Rick grunted.

  Quincy Umble pulled something out of his jacket. It looked at first like an ugly stone knife, its edges caked with blood; but as Quincy Umble turned it, Rick saw that it was a long, thick spike, it's head worn from being hammered; but at last he saw, really saw, what it was: a combat knife. One edge keen and honed, the other serrated. Quincy Umble lowered the knife to Rick's temple and made a quick little snick! Rick felt tufts of his beard fall away onto his ear.

  "What do you want!" Rick demanded. "Why are you doing this to me?"

  Quincy Umble did not look at him. Snick, snick! More of his beard fell away. "I know you, Richard Manchester. I've known you since . . . Vietnam. Yes. You got away from me for a bit when you married Marie, but I found you again. When you burned your hands, I found you." His voice was low, teasing. Soft. The knife scraped against Rick's face. "When you became addicted to morphine, how delicious, I knew how things would end. I was with you when you had your last dream, when you lifted poor little Tommy and threw his body down the stairs. I was with you through your divorce, through your trial, when despite your best efforts, they found you not guilty. I stayed close to you every night in the asylum. I was with you when you visited Tommy's grave, and Marie and her new husband found you and she slapped you, and he kicked you in the crotch. I knew you'd came back to this house. I knew you'd find a way to pull Tommy back to you. I knew your misery would bring you to him, and him to you. It's all about misery, Rick. You understand that don't you? Misery can do terrible, terrible things. People forget what misery can do. I do not. I know all the wounds, all the depth, all the ache of your misery. It is . . . sweet to me, Rick."

  "But now, old man, you're tapped out." Quincy Umble had finished shaving off Rick's beard. "Your misery has just about reached its peak. I don't want you, now. Tommy -- well, Tommy, trapped up in that dumbwaiter, no way to get free. Dead. It's not true that spirits can feel no misery, you know. Capture a ghost, and its capacity for misery is endless, because it cannot die. Absolutely. So I'm going to take your boy with me. I'm going to pull him right out of that chute, and place him in my strongest butterfly-box so he will never get away."

  Rick wailed and struggled, but Quincy Umble just chuckled. He wiped his cold hands on Rick's smooth, bare face. "Your beard will never grow back, now, Rick. Never. Go on. Take a look at yourself."

  Quincy Umble pulled him up to the window so he could see his reflection. There was no strength in Rick to move against him. The face in the window was old, tired. But it was Tommy. Tommy, as if he had aged, and been through years of pain and trial. His eyes were full of failure and alcoholism. His reflection was Tommy, in misery. Rick choked back a scream, and Quincy Umble pushed him away.

  "It'd be a shame if you killed yourself just to get away from living a failed life, Rick," said Quincy Umble. "So don't. I'm serious. Really. I'm going to leave now, but I'll be back. In two days. I have to get an early start, you know, so please have your things moved out before 9 a.m. The demolition equipment will probably be here tomorrow evening -- I don't think I mentioned I was destroying this house, did I? Anyway, just please be out by 9 a.m. on Friday.

  "And say hello to that sweet little boy of yours for me Rick, if you go visit him. I'll be seeing him soon."

  The door to the dumbwaiter was still open. Rick sat opposite to it, on the far side of the room. The moon had risen once, and set once, and now it was getting dark again. Rick's head was buzzing for liquor. But he didn't leave. What if Quincy Umble came back, with his black eyes and iron hands? What if he looked in the chute?

  The motors of big machines pulling into his driveway interrupted his thoughts, made his heart jump. But he didn't get up. Not even to see Tommy.

  What was the point? He was a fool to think Tommy would ever love him. Love the man who had choked him, thrown him, killed him? Good daddies don't choke their little boys. Good daddies don't have dreams about men being impaled on sticks, and dark things rising from their misery. Good daddies don't get addicted to morphine, even if their hands are raw flesh and burn every second of every day so they can't sleep, can't think, can't do anything but be in agony.

  The machines outside were as silent as the moonless sky, now. Rick didn't move from his spot on the floor, just sat and stared at the open door of the dumbwaiter. Before the welding accident, there had been good times with Marie and Tommy. The trip to Kansas to see buffalo and antelope. The daily games of catch and tag. If he had known . . .

  Misery. That's what Quincy Umble had said this was all about. His misery had drawn Tommy to him. Like drawing the tray up the dumbwaiter. Only now, the dumbwaiter was stuck in the middle of the chute, so Tommy couldn't ever come all the way out . . . Or maybe, Rick's misery had drawn him here, and Tommy was too scared to come all the way through. And that's why the dumbwaiter stuck. And why Quincy Umble could strip him out, maybe, because he was caught in the dumbwaiter and couldn't get up to Rick, or down to escape.

  If Tommy was stuck . . . why couldn't Rick pull him out?

  Rick crossed the room, and gave the draw rope attached to the dumbwaiter a tug. The dumbwaiter wouldn't budge. He did it again, hard this time -- and the dumbwaiter slid up in the chute a little. Rick cried out, but the rope snapped taut suddenly, then dragged downward a couple inches. No matter how hard he struggled with the rope now, the dumbwaiter wouldn't budge.

  Could he push it down? Maybe with a stick or a long pole . . . but Rick didn't have either. He'd have to climb into the chute if he wanted to push it down.

  Impossible. He couldn't fit through the opening. Only to his shoulders. The chute looked wide enough, but the door . . . If he lifted his arms above his head, and edged in, he could do it. Rick ran his hand around the opening. He could get out the same way.

  Rick felt his heart thumping hard. What time was it? Rick raced downstairs to the clock on the oven -- 4:30. Four-and-a-half hours. He could manage that. On the way back up the steps, he took them two at a time.

  He forgot to touch the sacred wall places.

  Rick took off all his clothes but his shoes and skivvies, and tucked his shoelaces securely back into the shoe. If there were any sharp edges in the chute, he didn't want clothes snagging on them and slowing him down. Better to scrape himself bloody than to be slow. Almost as an afterthought, he tied a knot in the end of the draw rope to keep it from slipping through the pulley. And that way, he could use the rope to pull himself back up the chute, too.

  "Close eyes. Deep breath. In we go," he muttered.

  He scraped his shoulders and ribs on the opening, but was able to brace his arms against either wall of the chute and pull his waist and legs in. It was a tight fit. Eyes still closed, he pulled on the draw rope until the knot caught on the pulley, and it was secure. Then he began to descend.

  The chute was close and hot. Rick was soon bathed in sweat, and his bare skin kept slipping and chafing on the walls. Bu
t he kept his eyes closed as he worked his way down. This would be his farewell to Tommy. He'd set him free. This was Tommy's eviction day. No -- this was Tommy's day of emancipation. He would be free of Rick, free of Quincy Umble, free of the misery that they had both imposed and wanted to impose on him.

  His feet touched something solid. The dumbwaiter. Rick resisted the urge to open his eyes, resisted the trigger that would take him to his son and the wheat field. Instead, he took a breath of the hot, stuffy air, and pushed with all his might down, down, down for Tommy --

  "Rick. What the hell are you doing?"

  Quincy Umble's voice caught Rick by surprise. He felt his eyelids trembling, felt them opening, and saw him grinning down.

  The world broke apart into thousands of dark butterflies. The sound of their wings swallowed Rick's cry of dismay.

  He was in the wheat field. The moon was as bright as ever, the wheat just as gold -- but the wind was as cold as rain. Tommy lay shivering at his feet.

  "I'm waiting for daddy," Tommy said. His lips were blue. "Leave me alone. Go away. I'm waiting for my daddy."

  But this time, Rick found he did not go away.

  "Tommy, is there someone else here?" Rick asked. "Is Quincy Umble here?"

  "He left. You leave, too. I'm waiting for my daddy."

  The wind stopped. Out at the edge of the wheat, Rick saw something moving -- not through the wheat, but on top of it. Where its feet touched, the wheat froze in place, seeping blood from the roots. The creature had no features, no fingers or toes, but was all jagged blackness. Arms and legs and a torso of dark shards, and its head was a massive, gaping blackness that devoured the moonlight around it.

  Tommy whimpered as it got close. Rick put himself between his son and the creature.

  "Little man," the thing said in Quincy Umble's voice, "get out of my way."

  It never moved, but suddenly Rick's hands and arms were covered in a wash of molten metal. Rick screamed and thrust his hands into the ground, but it had already become hard from the creature's presence. His flesh dropped away from his hands, leaving gobs on the ground as he tried to find something to wipe off the metal.